Final Nail

On the way to Bexhill-On-Sea today, at about 10.30am, my mobile phone beeps. An incoming text.Suddenly my hati berdebab-debub...as if like bad news is coming. As we are already on a right track,A24 heading to Horsham (betapa celakanya M25 telah ditutup,and we have to find other way to get to East Sussex) plus as I was not the one driving the vehicle, I grabbed my mobile phone to check my new incoming message.Ha ellehhhh...from Kiah Kidman ghope-ghope nya...eh..pa khabar kau, Kiah????

Kiah delivered a bad news.

When Sultan Idris of Perak was alive and kicking (and drinking...) I only know Raja Azlan Shah as the Chief Judge.The good looking man with his famous white hair.I never knew him being a prince of the previous Sultan Perak (memalukan betul, considering my father is from Kuala Kangsar and once worked with the Shahs of Perak circle).Well, we never ever heard of anak raja yang pandai, let alone become a Chief Judge. Well, knowing that you will have a permanent silver spoon feeding you, would you slog so hard? Tak kuasa lah kan? (That is why, aku ni ditakdirkan jadi anak askar aje....oh...Tuhan maha kaya) Suddenly, Sultan Idris died, leaving behind his 4 wives with 23 offsprings and Mazuin Hamzah free to marry Pengiran Sufri without hesitations.Perak at that time was not in a good time with many commiseration in tow, as in the deaths their future King successor.Well, they have that funny organisational chart where the son of current King must first become Raja dihulu hilir, before getting in the ladder of the Raja Muda stage.I believe that the present Raja Muda died (Raja Aziz) and Raja Azlan, who was the Raja DiHilir, naik pangkat as Raja Muda.Tup..tup...the present Raja died and he is now the next King.

It was a big thing...the Raja Azlan Shah that we saw with his famous judge wig is now wearing that 'tanjak emas'.There was news about him in every papers and magazine and his consort become the first commoners crowned as a queen.Haaa...makin jobo lah budak TKC.I seems to remember this ex TKC girl proudly told us that Tuanku Bainun is educated in TKC.Yelah...yelah. RTM made a special documentary about him and his family and it is like god gift, that Raja Azlan ada dua anak jantan yang maha hensem.His daughters are not bad too. Once upon a time, I fancy his second son (ohh..Ku Az..dimanakah ekau?) that got long hair macam Red Indian.But he broke my heart by joining that Tarikat and later married Noraini Jane.Tak pelah....takde jodoh.But there is still his abang, the unusually good looking Raja Nazrin.

So many girls,woman,makcik,nenek and moyang was fighting for his attention.I don't know anybody who didn't fancy him apart from those with sight problem.But in the end, he noticed me from afar...and we began our affair.So whirlwind.We talked everyday...as in he listened and I, blabbering away.During SRP and SPM when I was struglling with Mod and Add Math and feeling that world is closing to me, I cried to him asking him to pinang me, to whisk me away from my misery.But, he said he is not ready.He wanted to get his PHD first.I waited and waited.SRP finished...SPM finished...pun dia tak de nak buat plan apa-apa.I stopped talking to him and replaced him with Edika Yusof, Kingsway poster.That time, I learnt a vicious rumours about him and Wan Zaleha.Okay...that is bearable.At least I know I lost him to a better woman.Ye lah...siapalah I.Lainlah kalau I lawa macam Alyssa Milano ke...My fat chance with Raja Nazrin become so slim and eventually my chance with him suffered brutal anorexic and turned into size zero.Okaylah....I was so happy for Wan Zaleha.I was waiting for them to kahwin...but Raja Nazrin never changed.Like me, Wan Zaleha naik fed up and marry that horseman.I have a little tinged suggests that he is still waiting for me.Is he? Well, for what is obvious, he is now debab but still cute as ever...and I might soon return to my father's home town as a new queen, siapa tau kan?

Tunggu punya tunggu, macam tunggu nak kena Lotto or Euro Million.How many more time dia nak seksa batin I ni? I have come to think that I stand better chance with Prince Harry rather than our Raja Nazrin.

Kiah confirmed my worst nightmare...Raja Nazrin is getting married.Kiah hated herself for being the one who have to break the bad news to me...well, Kiah...it is a dirty job but someone have to do it.What can I say? Some years ago, I watched 'Shakespeare In Love' and identified hugely with this line....

Give me your hand.I now place it on my chest and whisper swiftly....'This is my heart....(pause)...and it's broken'.

How could you, Raja Nazrin ?