Merenda Kasih

I started my day very early and was mesmerised by the falling snow. You never think about seeing a snow at this time of the year, sama lah macam banjir in Johore. Because of this, it took me a good 2 hours travelling to work on the bus waiting for the Richmond Council to scrap the icy bit. Hajat dihati nak ponteng...but as Cikki kat rumah tu sakit mata and I tak nak lah pulak berjangkit, gagahkanlah jugak kaki ni. Bus took ages to come maybe because of the road condition.Lama lah menunggu sampai tangan beku. I keep wishing that the bus will turn up anytime soon...so dapatlah aku merasakan kehangatan badan bus itu. After 1/2 hour or maybe more, muncul 3 bus sekali lalu. Tunggu berjam-jam, sekali datang, hah!!! From there, you can see the similarities between men and buses.You waited for them long time and then, two came along at once. Dua dua lapang and banyak seat. But always,always choose the first one. I can't tell you the reason why, just an inkling. But, snow is only nice and pretty when they fall down from the sky.When they cair, people like me, can jatuh tergolek anytime.

Thanks to Hjh Coco Pop Chanel, dapat jugak I install this song in my blog.There is something about this song that touches me so deep and there was a time where I was woken up of my long and winding dream by this.Some years ago when the TV still showing ASIA BAGUS, the Indonesian contestant is the one that I would watch out for because they, off all contestant and superstar wannabe will choose the most quality song that suits the competition.One of the Indonesian's favourite was 'Merenda Kasih'.

As you have read my kisah cinta that lasted for 10 years...the part where Ruth was rendering 'Tiada lelahku, menanti dan tunggu harapan yang dulu kau janji kan...Namun sampai kapan..kuharus selalu begini kasih..., that is when I realised that I waited and patient long enough with him to take anymore deposit of shit. I identify with it a lot and I have agreed that after a long tak sudah-sudah battle...like 'Dan bila kita memang harus berpisah'....we should really 'berpisah' and educate ourselves into moving on and there is always a grass that is greener that where you are at that time.

Of course the last part where 'Biarkan daku dengan cintaku, dengan jalanku...kan ku ukir manis kenangan kasih kita', is the most important bit of parting.I guess this is the same with everyone that has come out from a long term relationship, that you really have to promise yourself something that is strong enough to cajole yourself out of the misery.I did this.I keep telling myself, enough is enough...and I will get through this.

Conclusion? I think I have got through 'that' and I still think of him...the one I have loved so,so much I can die.Cit!!!