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Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Merenda Kasih

I started my day very early and was mesmerised by the falling snow. You never think about seeing a snow at this time of the year, sama lah macam banjir in Johore. Because of this, it took me a good 2 hours travelling to work on the bus waiting for the Richmond Council to scrap the icy bit. Hajat dihati nak ponteng...but as Cikki kat rumah tu sakit mata and I tak nak lah pulak berjangkit, gagahkanlah jugak kaki ni. Bus took ages to come maybe because of the road condition.Lama lah menunggu sampai tangan beku. I keep wishing that the bus will turn up anytime soon...so dapatlah aku merasakan kehangatan badan bus itu. After 1/2 hour or maybe more, muncul 3 bus sekali lalu. Tunggu berjam-jam, sekali datang, hah!!! From there, you can see the similarities between men and buses.You waited for them long time and then, two came along at once. Dua dua lapang and banyak seat. But always,always choose the first one. I can't tell you the reason why, just an inkling. But, snow is only nice and pretty when they fall down from the sky.When they cair, people like me, can jatuh tergolek anytime.
Thanks to Hjh Coco Pop Chanel, dapat jugak I install this song in my blog.There is something about this song that touches me so deep and there was a time where I was woken up of my long and winding dream by this.Some years ago when the TV still showing ASIA BAGUS, the Indonesian contestant is the one that I would watch out for because they, off all contestant and superstar wannabe will choose the most quality song that suits the competition.One of the Indonesian's favourite was 'Merenda Kasih'.
As you have read my kisah cinta that lasted for 10 years...the part where Ruth was rendering 'Tiada lelahku, menanti dan tunggu harapan yang dulu kau janji kan...Namun sampai kapan..kuharus selalu begini kasih..., that is when I realised that I waited and patient long enough with him to take anymore deposit of shit. I identify with it a lot and I have agreed that after a long tak sudah-sudah battle...like 'Dan bila kita memang harus berpisah'....we should really 'berpisah' and educate ourselves into moving on and there is always a grass that is greener that where you are at that time.
Of course the last part where 'Biarkan daku dengan cintaku, dengan jalanku...kan ku ukir manis kenangan kasih kita', is the most important bit of parting.I guess this is the same with everyone that has come out from a long term relationship, that you really have to promise yourself something that is strong enough to cajole yourself out of the misery.I did this.I keep telling myself, enough is enough...and I will get through this.
Conclusion? I think I have got through 'that' and I still think of him...the one I have loved so,so much I can die.Cit!!!

8 comments:

Goddess Selene said...

Erkkk.. To be honest, I dont miss the snow.. Thank god that there's no sign of snow in Dublin at all..hehehe.. Haiyoo mak tak dpt bayangkan bila berlecak2 then kasutku basah then kakuku beku!! volley?? Ohh tak lupa jugak abis kain telekong kotor.. aiiiyakkk..

Snow is nice when u r indoor watching its coming down. After all that verangan, here come the reality of life!! hiks..

Lee Novotny said...

Merenda??? reminded me of "merendek" piula...**matiker mak????

Hmm yang lampau lampau ittew usah dikenang u ols..let's get on with our lives. Macam gak sorang hadek nih, nak move on with life pun susah walhal dah berkali kali mak bagitahu!!!

Belladonna said...

Nok, cemanalah rasa tempat bersalji ni? Nanti aku suruh kakak buat abc tu buat ais bebanyak pastu tabur kat badan sendiri, bleh? hahahaha..

Nok, maybe si dia tu dah set a bar too high sampai cinta lain tak tercapai standard ittew. Sebab tu maybe ko masih takbleh move on. Err, ittew speku sajork. But aku berharap ko akan dapat juga melupakan si dia ittew dan berbahagia hendaknya :)

:: samasam :: said...

hey, i love ruth sahanaya also u know .. yang terbaik, kaulah segalanya .. suka lagu2 tuh.. and masa age 12-13 pon dulu i tgk gak asia bagus, time yg amy mastura menang tuh mcm x sangka sangat kan? diaorg buat secara live rasanya dr tokyo tuh .. bykla bakat2 kita dtg dr asia bagus tuh tp yg kekal pon amy matura aje, lain2 semua tah mana tah ..

Lee Novotny said...

Endang S taurina? Hetty Koes Endang?? Mak kenal diorang je laa...**matilaa kertu, kan?? LOL

:: samasam :: said...

hey, i kenal endang s taurina also ok .. dia kan glamer masa late 80s dulu ..

yanz said...

adeeehhh... sayu lak aku baca entri ko ni han.. huhu :( agaknya aku bkal mghadapi prkara yg sama kot? (mintak jgn!)

its hard for us to forget the past juz like dat.. tul dak han?? *nanges!

Montymelly said...

Han, chenta agung ko ni sampai bila2 ko takkan dapat lupakan dia..tapi life has to go on..but say if you end up with him kan, unless ko memang pakai rose tinted glasses kan, ko akan tengok dia lepak kat rumah pakai kain pelekat je, tido malam tak berus gigi, kentut main suka, towel basah laypok atas katil ..(ish..what am i talking about here? Cam menceritakan keadaan kat rumah i je..)...satu masa nanti kentut dia pun kurang wangi...
But if we don't get the thing we want kan, memang kita akan selalu nakkan benda tu, kan?