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Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Revenge Sleeping

For the past 72 hours, I have been sleeping like kobau.The longest.My only communication with internet is when I want to read the online local newspaper and checking mails.However ill,I need to shadow some work.Some key people in the office has gone sick as well and weather, as usual never helps.It rains if it wants to,temperature increased whenever and in house radiator took ages to fight the chilling temperature at night.At times, I woke up in the middle of the night feeling very,very warm.The chill dissapear and radiators heating is still riding high.Bangang!!!

The enormously strong antibiotics contributes to every aspect of my lethargy.I was thinking that if I am physically tired,psychologically I'm probably knackered too.I have to apologise to my patient via Miss Nigeria for unable to do session with them.I'm sure some of them is probably very pleased.The common comments that I received from my patient is that I managed to make them talked about things that they don't want to.Some feel a lot happier and some doesn't really like to face an ugly truth.So many ugly truth even I myself can't bear to contain.I can understand how difficult it is for some people to let out some ugly part of them.Once out,you have got to find a way to deal with it.Some succeed and some failed miserably to cope.

My 72 hours of marathon sleeping came across to me as a revenge.I don't sleep that much ever since I can remember.And now, I sleep because I simply don't have energy to do anything else (not exactly true...I sneaked out to Mark & Spencer yesterday)

I feel quite hypocritical about sleeping.Day in day out I have to tell people the ugly of excessive sleeping.These are the people that I have to keep awake.They were made sleepy by their medications and their physical and mental movement can be badly affected. I have seen the effect of sleeping excessively.The quality of life spiralled to the lowest bottom.

In a psychodynamical theory, sleeping more than we have to is one form of escapism.The sleeper will be disenchant from their happy thoughts.Mind will work less when you are asleep.

I don't quite agree with that theory until today.In a way, I slept it all because somehow I feel very relief.I'm facing a huge relationship problems that my concern flatmates have to get involved by speaking to my other half.I know for sure if only I can see this coming,I wouldn't have attached myself that easily.As much as I keep saying that 'I can do without',my current situation is more complicated that it look on the surface.

The easiest way that I can figure out now is not to think about it.I managed that quite easily when I was asleep.Now that I am widely awake,it just follow me around like a shadow.

How I wish I can tell you but I just have to work it out myself.

Dear all, thanks for stopping by.Pray wish, I will speak to you soon.

5 comments:

lekiu said...

Hush, little baby, don't say a word, Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird.

If that mocking bird don't sing,
Daddy's gonna buy you a diamond ring.

If that diamond ring turns brass,
Daddy's gonna buy you a looking glass.

If that looking glass gets broke,
Daddy's gonna buy you a billy goat.

If that billy goat don't pull,
Daddy's gonna buy you a cart and bull.

If that cart and bull turn over,
Daddy's gonna buy you a dog named Rover.

And if that dog named Rover won't bark.Daddy's gonna to buy you and horse and cart.

And if that horse and cart fall down, You'll still be the sweetest little baby in town.

Sleeeeppppppp Princess Han... seelllleeepppp... hehehe

Belladonna said...

Kobau oh kobau
Kenapa engkau nyanyi
Cemana aku tak nyanyi
Aku tuo pelupo
Aku tuo pelupo...

Hihihihi.... Jangan dilayan sangat masalah itew, let ur flatmate jadi mediator sementara ko baru nak baik sakit nih. Kalau tido jangan lupa mimpi nombor nok. Kalau kayo boleh joli kobau :)

Anonymous said...

U ols, woww..patutlaa nak try call beberapa kali dinch dapat! Berdengkur dan sorting out relationship kaedahnya!

Well, I hope u ols can sort that Frankie thing out once and for all because it clearly does not help you to ease off your pneumonia.. ada ada sajork masalah Frankie nih.

This weekend kalau we ols tak ke mana mana (Avang nak gi naik Eurotunnel!!!! tapi mak nak ke London!!) maybe we can meet up? Nak jugak pi ke Oriental City ittew kalau tak jauh..and hopefully can lah ek visit ur house?? **matilaaa invite diri sendiri ***matilaa muka tak malu :P

Have a nice rest dear and say hi to Liza & Lou!

x

lekiu said...

Relationship problems we face always weigh us down. I don't think anyone is able to provide a solution to the problem you face. We can however be here for you.

We wish that you can find a solution and unhinge yourself from your troubles.

The thing about separation or reconcilliation is that in both instance it will emotionally scar you. But painful as it may be, it is a road that you must choose.

Life is like that. One of the thing that makes the Scriptures an interesting read is that it tells us that whatever we face is not new. That Prophets have had to overcome great doubts and great dificulties. The bulk of Greek tragedies does the same thing, it tells us that life is such.

I have a favourite Yoda quote, "Soon will I rest, yes, forever sleep. Earned it I have. Twilight is upon me, soon night must fall". It sounds morbid but try reading it from a different viewpoint. I read it not so much that it promises end to all worry after death, but that soon all chaos will dissapear and order will be restored.

Before you ask, yes i do know Yoda is a fictional character !

We are like boxers in a boxing ring except that we can't punch but only weave and take punches and at the end of each round (each episode in life) we are expected to stand and fight back.

Some wise people say that praying helps. Been trying to try it one of these days, but too ashamed to face the Almighty for a variety of reasons.

Hang in there buddy ! Take comfort that Arsenal won. Fabregas was fabulous, Toure was dependable as usual, Walcott showed promised, Baptista finally scored and Ljungberg should retire and concentrate on modelling CK underwear !

Danie Simpleton said...

Assalamualaikum.

Hey babe, hope u'll get well soon hek!