For the past 72 hours, I have been sleeping like kobau.The longest.My only communication with internet is when I want to read the online local newspaper and checking mails.However ill,I need to shadow some work.Some key people in the office has gone sick as well and weather, as usual never helps.It rains if it wants to,temperature increased whenever and in house radiator took ages to fight the chilling temperature at night.At times, I woke up in the middle of the night feeling very,very warm.The chill dissapear and radiators heating is still riding high.Bangang!!!
The enormously strong antibiotics contributes to every aspect of my lethargy.I was thinking that if I am physically tired,psychologically I'm probably knackered too.I have to apologise to my patient via Miss Nigeria for unable to do session with them.I'm sure some of them is probably very pleased.The common comments that I received from my patient is that I managed to make them talked about things that they don't want to.Some feel a lot happier and some doesn't really like to face an ugly truth.So many ugly truth even I myself can't bear to contain.I can understand how difficult it is for some people to let out some ugly part of them.Once out,you have got to find a way to deal with it.Some succeed and some failed miserably to cope.
My 72 hours of marathon sleeping came across to me as a revenge.I don't sleep that much ever since I can remember.And now, I sleep because I simply don't have energy to do anything else (not exactly true...I sneaked out to Mark & Spencer yesterday)
I feel quite hypocritical about sleeping.Day in day out I have to tell people the ugly of excessive sleeping.These are the people that I have to keep awake.They were made sleepy by their medications and their physical and mental movement can be badly affected. I have seen the effect of sleeping excessively.The quality of life spiralled to the lowest bottom.
In a psychodynamical theory, sleeping more than we have to is one form of escapism.The sleeper will be disenchant from their happy thoughts.Mind will work less when you are asleep.
I don't quite agree with that theory until today.In a way, I slept it all because somehow I feel very relief.I'm facing a huge relationship problems that my concern flatmates have to get involved by speaking to my other half.I know for sure if only I can see this coming,I wouldn't have attached myself that easily.As much as I keep saying that 'I can do without',my current situation is more complicated that it look on the surface.
The easiest way that I can figure out now is not to think about it.I managed that quite easily when I was asleep.Now that I am widely awake,it just follow me around like a shadow.
How I wish I can tell you but I just have to work it out myself.
Dear all, thanks for stopping by.Pray wish, I will speak to you soon.