May Blues

I am always the last one..or perhaps too slow in retrieving juicy stories i.e. gossips, hot-hot news etc.One may ask...why lah nak sebok-sebok? Another may ask, dah duduk oversea bertahun, masih gak nak berpikiran melayu lama macam Kiah (walaupun self proclaimed cream de la cream tu) , suka sibuk-sibuk hal orang ni? (Geez, I learned a lot, didn't I, since membaca entry-entry berilmiah ni)

One of this blog reader once told me that he..(ye..jantan ni) is quite anxious of the prospect of knowing me in person, because he fear that I might 'read' him. Funny though, them jantan always say 'we males don't do gossips'. Ntah nya. Maybe they don't lah kot...tercabar ke musculine an mereka tu, but o'dear, they do worry about benda-benda sekecik sabun Popinjay yang kaler ijau tu like...what people think of me, like that. Kelakar, cakap tak suka gossip, tapi kalau orang gossip hal dia, hah..runtuh langit dek risau, kan? This guy, I assume that he might think my job involves analysing people and discussing them. Yes, that is so true...but we Social Workers (dah le bergaji paling rendah dalam UK ni) don't just analyse anybody. We don't give advice too...eh, we do, but only when required to.

But I have said before. I carried this habit at work and impose it into my social life (dah le tak banyak mana punggg) and I do sometimes, read and analyse people...especially the one that gave me the bad vibes. And all that information, adalah menjadi tajuk gossip yang dijadikan bahan mengumpat kat kedai kopi DOME tu, bersama Dentist Bini Orang and Miss AA. Syok kan?

I have to say, I don't easily dislike people. I think I know what it feels like to be disliked, it's horibble and I never like to see people being mistreated.

When I walk into all the secure unit I am attached with and other halfway houses that I co-managed,I keep telling myself that this is just a job and the horrible people are horrible because they are not well inside. I do form my opinion and sometimes, I have a horrible opinion about them, especially when I am angered.But in the end, these people have specific conditons, and paranoid is one of them and the only way to make themselves feel better about themselves is by hurting people.

I think it is hard for me nowadays to just tell the tales how it is...as people who reads forms many-many opinions and tak pasal-pasal terasa yang bukan-bukan. It is also sad to hear that one can no longer express an opinion, however silly we may think and in the end become the object of ridicule.

My mother is not a well studied person, compared to my father and from time to time, she will come up with some Q and A yang sungguh tak masuk akalnya more so very kelakar that me and my younger sister will laugh AT her.But she is my mother and however tak masuk akal, she meant well. She saw more things than me and however tinggi nya I belajar (takdelah tinggi macam Kiah) there is more things that she know more than me.

I spoke to my friend recently and how he/she is now consumed with anxiety of not speaking the way we used to, dek tak mau nya orang lain tersalah anggap.

All I want to say here to you who read, is to just read and maybe learn from what is available to learn. There's no need to be so melodramatic. After all, we are all friends, sebanyak mana kuat mengumpat pun. Friends and friends do talk about each other, sometime in nice and horrible way. What we don't do is slander and start to behave in a super mighty way thinking that we are above others.

Mulut yang mengata pun mesti ada brake jugak...yes, your heart will go on and mulut yang mengata/mengutuk pun, dah habis rasa marah dihati then habislah. Tak yah buat hate campaign pulak.

We are not perfect ourselves, (yang tukang tulis pun sama jua) and surely we do not want to go around with reputation of being the complicated one.

Of course, we must not condone mulut-mulut yang jahat...but I'm sure, we are all up for just a laugh. Do we not think that sometimes, question asked and entries written is just to see how one reacted? I read about some people who was slandered left-right-centre, name called and tah apa lagi benda-benda teruk written about them, and all we saw was a dignified silence.

I think, betul or salah pun, kalau yang betul...belajarlah dari kesilapan. Kalau yang suka pau duit orang, expecting orang aje belanja dia makan/minum, maybe pasni..bersama-sama lah keluar duit kan? Kalau yang suka jadik mandur bila datang rumah orang, paksa masak itu ini buat karipap bagai...belajar-belajar lah buat karipap sendiri kan?

Oh, what am I blabbering about? Yes, it is about Kiah. Just because kau pandai and ada super power, maka tak payah lah kau nak mengata aku yang kurang berpendidikan ni ye?

So, Kiah...I am expecting to see a respond in your blog (and Facebook)

Muahahahahahahaha....