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Saturday, November 24, 2007

Siri Bercakap Dengan Jin - 4

This Guy Mula-Mula Berdiri Betul-Betul Depan I..From Vauxhall to Oxford Circus...Pakcik Ni Pakai Trackbottom, Maka Oblong Ballnya Tersembul Sepanjang Masa...Until Sorang Pompuan Celaka Turun Kat OC, So, Mamat Ni Dapat Lah Tempat Duduk...Aish...Tak Dapat Lah Aku Nak Menjamu Mata...Ohh, Abang..Carik Apa Dalam Poket Tu? Sekuntum Bunga Cina ke?


I can't do a 'Mamamia' review since I didn't get to see any West End musical show last night. Hanya orang gila aje yang ada nafsu nak travel ke Central London yesterday. I was not up to it at all giving the traffic reports and my unwell self. Hidung pun tersosek-sosek...dengan tekak yang mengembang cam puaka. I opted to stay at work working on my new 'Understanding Schizophrenia' project. Haiyoh!!!

Me and my boss have a chat and she thought, giving my suam-suam kuku knowledge, I should now specialise in this. I have been working with the Autistic Spectrum group long enough, plus the PS family had asked for me to be their appointed person of contact. Masalah nya, tahukah mereka tu yang aku ni sebenarnya tak gemar dengan they all tu? Ni bukan kes tak gemar sikit-sikit ni, to the extent sampai I boleh nak resign...

While I have spent a good 45 minutes telling her my reason (or shall I say, talking myself out of that responsibility) she seems convinced that I should give it a try. Bosses will pay for the extra teraphy and all I do is to work on the relapse prevention plan. (ishh..kalau offer naik gaji, maka bernafsu lah sikit I kan?)

Maka hari ni, sorry to dissapoint you, I need to take the burden out of my head. I am the less fortunate people in this world who kena jugak ikut cakap boss walaupun hati nak pecah demi menjaga kebajikan diri sendiri.It is not about people anymore...the job wants it. I remember my friend who had to take case of some greasy penyamun and represent him. When the job requires you to be client centred, ni lah padah nya.

While 3 million Malaysia are now 'pesakit mental'....ooops! I have to disagree with that report. I am not sure if a psychistrist would agree, it is politically incorrect and almost discriminating.Berapa juta rakyat Malaysia? (Matilahhh..tak tau pengetahuan am) and why are they closing in to this 3 millions individuals? In what way, or what gives the Department Of Health the right to signed them off as pesakit mental? Or, are they just the poor 3 millions who has been diagnosed with rare chemical imbalance in their body hence incapacitating their brain?

Any one of us can be affected by mental exhaustion. We can have a moment of madness that after a while, we realised that it was mad.Are we that 'pesakit mental'? Hope not. My younger brother, judging from what he do for fun might be classified as one. I called him that...geram punya pasal.But your brain can tell you something others not necessarily agree and it takes your emotion to tell your brain otherwise.

Jantan Tembam that day, macam tak letih-letih bagitahu I yang he feel so lonely. Aren't we all sometimes? We can be lonely in a partnership as well when literally we are not.I have been trying, as a friend ye, bukan as a Social Worker, to tell him that. But adakah dia nak dengar? Nope, he listened to his brain yang penuh taik and any other chemical yang terlepas naik ke kepala sebab tak leh keluar kat tempat lain..(waaa, chemical apakah itu?) What happened after that? My brain is telling me that I am tired of talking the same old nasihat to him while my emotion still feel that he needed help to overcome his grief. But in the end, my brain and my emotion see eye to eye and that later become volcanic eruption yang berbunyi..Ohh...you're making me ill listening to you on and on about your so called sad life, just fuck off..just fuck off !!!

Sakit mental sekejap I that day...I was angry.I really thought, that is it. Habislah persahabatan ku dengan mu (not that kita kawan rapat kat sekolah pun) I was always taught by my peers, better be careful what you say to a man, they all ni simpan dalam (ey, apa yang simpan dalam ye? Yang panjang itu ke?) and then, habislah dibunuhnya kau nanti..., well, it is not my fault that they want to 'simpan dalam' kan? And what happen to the freedom of speech? Kalau jantan tu dah nak merasa sangat sangat kena maki, tak ke harus di maki habis-habisan gitu? Well, peers, thanks for your nasihat lah, but I think...in life we just have got to take the risk. I don't think we set out to upset people kan? See lah how people take it. You just have to say out what's upsetting you, walaupun dalam blog...

I never think about JT after that, menyesal sebab maki dia pun tidak. I take full responsibility atas perbuatan ku yang takde sungguh nilai ketimuran itu.I'm just done with empathy with him...he is hardly a chronic case that you really should tread carefully bila bukak mulut.But I know myself and I know that I have a clear conscience when I do something but my mannerism always influenced my emotion.

Speaking about pesakit mental, our partner can be one.Tinggal accute or tak accute aje. We have our moment of mental incapacity,unlike the affected one, we just blessed that we have perfect chemical in our body.Malaysia shouldn't worry about the 3 millions pesakit mental, by this I think they mean the one in their asylum. Usually, people who their brain badly affected by this imbalanced chemical is so harmless, emotionally.We just have to know the way to get through to them.

JT called yesterday and apologised. Well, it works in the end. He just need my cursing to get through to his thick scalp.He is heavy, he is my school mate.And he don't care...(apa ni, mic mix lagu Hollies & Beatles lak ni)

10 comments:

Lee Novotny said...

Nok.nati mak ngomen lagi..diorang cakap 3 juta lah nok..bukan 30 juta..tu rakyat Uganda kot?? Oops!

Hjh Esah Jolie said...

Oh Ye ke? Buakn 30? Okay..Makji tukar sekarang gak...

aizee left eye said...

pompuan, kau tak mintak nombot telipon dia tu ke? Dapat kat aku siaplah..sumpah tak turun katil you.

Manal said...

JT nih gumuk yaamaaatt sampai tableh nak wank himself off ker for kelegaan sementara, noks? Tak reti nak gi ayat mana2 minah sana ka? go online and have sex chat ke kan? Ke makji jugak tempat dia naik lemak.
Pi la join trisha ke sally jessy raphael ke kan, mana tau dapatla intensive and semangat untuk kuruskan badan and show it off on the national telly.



Makji insured tak bila handle case orang sakit jiwa ni? U could publish a self-help book based on your many experiences dealing with the oddballs and be a millionaire!

DBI said...

skodeng kah?? lain kali terus jer gi teppek teppek gitu....

Manal said...

Errr....by the way, I'd prolly do the same like u to that laki kacak itewwww.....except i wont be taking his photo....but yeah, cant help it laa esp that i'm becoming more and more expert in that!

Tigress said...

Hi there,

Was bloghopping on a Blue Monday Morning and couldn't help but laugh myself silly reading your stories.. Terkurang sikit the blue-ness. And when u can, please, please write about Mammamia! I saw it last year and absolutely loved it, more than Phantom, Les Miserables etc. Abba ni serupa hantu...

Hjh Esah Jolie said...

aizee...oooo, tak nak turun katil ye?

Manal, bukan pasal gemuk, pasal tak reti kot? (Mana ada jantan yg tak reti kan?) Kalau I, I akan suruh dia pergi that Jeremy Kyle show, harus lah kena tengking kan?
Self help book? Erm....I tak pandai tulis la Manal...

Teppek ke dio ko, Doc? Aah lah..why ddnt I think of that kan? Pastu buat la purak-purak gila macam tu, harus tak kena tangkap...

Tigress, thanks ya for coming.No one should ask for me to write a review, first pasal I ni ada bad taste...mesti bias gila babi bila kasi review.Kang kecik lak ati peminat Mamamia...

Lee Novotny said...

mak aihhhhh comelnya cik abang ball obolng ittew..kalau mak kat sittew harus dos mak truss cekup oblongnya hahahahhahahaha :)

famil said...

malaysia has 25 mil pop. abt 9 mill adult. 3 mill they plucked from numbers of person who visited psychiatrist. Tak kira berapa ramai. it just counted how many visits, thats why figure jadi 3 juta. Plus tak kira for what case, asal jumpa psyciatrist jer sudah consider sakit mental. mental betul jabatan statistik!