Update

The Bunga-Bunga Chenta

The day I travelled home is the date of my 1st date after many years hiatus with MC. It's been a year already. Kawan and berscandal sudah lama...haiyaaa.We met at Subang Parade for lunch. We talked-talked-talked like 2 old friends.Little that I know MC got plan to kidnap me for the day that I missed out my another date with the then mak buyung NBNS.That night after dinner kat rumahnya,I balik tempat lepak sepenuh masa I kat USJ and cannot shleep.I then realised feelings is still there.I was sad.Sad because I know with MC, I will never stand a chance.Then and now.We continue to flirt-flirt via text messages.But while boarding my flight back to LHR, I cannot tahan and say...I still have feelings for you. MC reciprocated.And after a year, thanks to delivery girl patah tangan, I sent MC something spesial. I know dia takkan ingatnya benda-benda camni (walaupun dia kata dia ingat tapi tak sure hari bulan..eleh..srupa lah like tak ingat kannn?) But I just want to remember the fact that we are still together after a year, far from each other, in between tantrums, episode merajuk-rajuk yang tak kena pujuk and all that long distance travels yang memenatkan badan I.Both of us really not into bunga but bunga seems to be the most appropriate (and economical) option to show chenta. MC is not so generous with compliments (especially untuk I) but after the bunga, merasa aku dapat message-message feeling jiwang selama 3 jam berturut-turut. Okay laa tu...I have small demands okay?

The 'I Tak Nak You Balik....'

I hear this words so often from MC and it may as well almost ringing true. But deep down I know that as much as I want to be near, we are better off far from each other (but not la this far) but how lah? And everytime we talk, I will remind MC, you lah punya pasal ni...siapa suruh you cari I..kan dah susahhhh dah sekarang? (Chewwah..marah la konon kannn?)

The Always Not Easy Goodbyes

I always admire the fact that you made it very easy for me to leave. When I cry, you will buat taktahu and I will always pick myself up again.But this time, I cried so many times it becomes so difficult for you to ignore.But its good that you didn't pujuk.Always I ask, do you think this will work? We are very far from each other. We don't have any ties together, what is there to keep us? I told you to carry on doing what you want to do...see whoever you want to see. But you must tell me when it is over for you. I don't want you to feel guilty. I am too boring for you. I don't do things. You said you have accepted this. I keep asking if its bothers you. You said no. You said, past is past.

This intervals will be a long one. I am already besides myself missing you. The situation is not perfect. You are not and I am the same. We always want something we can't get. Tak apalah if the situation is not and we are not. The idea of you itself makes everything perfect for me.

Now I want to go and nangis...(again)