During Holidays...You Sure Got Time To 'Over' Ponder...

1st encounter - Some semi midnight drama kat RTM1, can't remember what is the tajuk, since aku pun taklah ghetinya nak operate that Asteruk remote control, but that time that was the only drama melayu and the other channel dipenuhi dgn muka AC Mizal and those Indonesian,Hongkie and Indian drama and I'm so not in the mood to membaca sarikata.The Malay drama is about Kartina Aziz limping about in the kampung, bawak mangkuk bertingkat for her son yang kesudahnya chase her away.Cilaka punya anak! To cut the story, in the end mak sakit, anak pun sakit and both died on the same day.While mak went in for a smooth sailing,anak dia punya coffin punyalah berat,mandi busuk and last-last, masuk kubur pun payah and berulat dengan sekelip matanya.Huiyooo!!! if that occurence did not scare you, it sure did menakutkan diriku yang jahat ni.I spent couple of hours jugaklah memikir...I never pushed my mum away, I'm not the menjawab type (hence..my mum is the quiet one so dia pun tak cakap banyak..so kalau dah tak cakap banyak, apa nya yang nak dijawab kan?) But I sure remember that for a while jugaklah I misunderstood my mother (aren't we all...yang middle child ni?) Thinking that mother loves the others more and you less.I'm not about to become a mother and I can never understand the susah payah nya to have everything ready...dengan anak, dengan laki.Mother usually have to take the 'worrier' role mcm bini orang MRSM Beseri tu since the man is more interested to worry about team mana yang boleh maintain first 4 in the Premiership.Believe me, I am trying to be anak yang solehah...although is not easy and for this I blamed Sekolah Berasrama Penuh.What is wrong now? I am the mendengar kata...but I find it hard to 'berkata-kata' pulak.To all mommies, talk to your kids...especially to those yang tak bercakap tu.I am not gifted with the spontaneity to ask my mother...like masak apa hari ni etc (the real truth is, I've seen my mother working so hard habis kerja jaga anak without bantuan laki and on top of everything have to worry about children etc, so I tak sampai hati nak mintak2 to add to her already berlambak burden)

For that, dengan rendah hatinya...because I live very far from my parents...I do not wish to have difficulties in passing.

2nd encounter - That PETRONAS ad, with Maria Arshad looking gracefully old, unlike segala Minah Botox and Nenek Plastik.The son balik kampung, terus nak cari internet (macam aku aje) and keep telling his mom that he is busy with his work...(pun macam aku). But Maria Arshad, like my mother..Mak okay..mak okay...

To those who cannot read between the line like me, bila mak okay..mak okay tu..memang suka lah hati bila mak dah okay..and you seem 'okay' to carry out what you like to do best...like berjalan-jalan tak hengat donia.But of course ibu mithali like that, anak wishes come first.I get really anxious bila iklan tu keluar...because it really reminds me of me. Ohh..my poor mother.

3rd encounter - The Telekom ad...the man with his son.They balik kampung.Tup tup bila salam raya, the son asked his dad, kenapa kita balik sini? Atuk nenek pun dah takde...and the father (yang hensem ittew) then calmly answer with muka cam nak nangis serong berong tu...sebab masa Atuk Nenek ada, Ayah tak pernah balik.The son tu pulak macam diajar-ajar aje to add more salt to his dad's wound. telepon pun tak pernah ke, Ayah? Lagilaaaa ayah nak ghun-ghun serabak kan?

Waaaa.....how many times I called my parents? I sure can count with one hand.(But, dari kecik pun I never call them....)

Apa la nak jadi dengan I ni......