Boring Stuff

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Owh...saya sungguh meluat betul dengan kes-kes meliwat ini.

Macamlah dah tak ada masalah lain melainkan masalah orang-orang ini aje yang jadi perkara paling penting sampai

a) Budak hilang tak jumpa-jumpa
b) Minyak kereta yang mahal nak mampus tapi takde orang nak buat apa-apa
c) Orang yang kuat tidur tu masih lagi jadik PM

So Anwar sodomised one young bum, what are we going to do? How is he pleasuring himself is going to help our nation? Anwar sampai mati pun boleh mampu isi minyak kereta...he can afford big houses, he travel as and when. He can talk shit from his arse until the cow come home and he is still very well look after.

Yang kita ni? Perlukah nak dilayan lagi orang-orang yang konon nya niat hanya satu, nak menolong rakyat?

Susahkan....bila semua orang nak jadik Boss ni.

Update...Jgn Tak Update

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Dua 3 hari ni, hati I memanglah sakit...ni kira kes harapkan pagar, pagar sungguh jahat. Habis komputer riba ku di jahanamkan nya.

Disebakan cuaca kat England sekarang ni macam puaka...although, I misti bersyukur pasalnya, bila I balik Malaysia...owwhh..maafkan statement bongkak ku ini...I sungguhlah tak tahan panas. Betul you..kadang-kadang I malu sungguh nak ngaku hakikat yang I ni dah jadik sombong bongkak and Melayu tak sedar dek untung. Bila I balik KL...siang hari kerja ku tidur dan menjadi Ibu Tiri yang amat garang to my niece and nephew yang sungguhlah berperangai puaka ittew...

Bila malam...bontot ni macam panas nak keluar meronggeng malam-malam buta dan of course lah, activity malaman ku itu tidak direstui oleh Ayahnda dan Bonda. Tapi apakan daya...anaknda ini sudah 35 umurnya dan tak reti bahasa. Nak pulak, niat anaknda berjalan malam disokong seratus peratus oleh adinda-adinda setan yang lain...so, Ayahnda dah tak boleh nak cakap apa, melainkan mendoakan kesejahteraan anak-anaknya yang berperangai syaitan ini. Ceh!!!!

Okay...my laptop was badly affected by Trojan virus. Mak Badak lah yang punya angkara. Tah hapa file benbarang free yang dia accept, habis laptop jadi slow and tak bermaya.

And because I ni kedekut nak mampos, kerja-kerja repair terpaksa diserahkan kepada orang IT kat Head Office yang of course lah, personal laptop ni kurang priority nya.So, entah bila laptop ku akan sembuh, tuhan ajelah yang tahu. I am hardly in the office nowadays and by the time I sampai rumah, I macam dah penat nak mampus.

So, I will endeavour to update as frequent as I can but since orang lain pun macam malas nak update blog sendiri tapi mengharapkan aku aje yang update, maka dengan ini dimaklum kan kat you all...kalau ada update, adalah ye. Kalau takde...tak ada lah.

Selamat membaca you all.

Selamat Balik Kampung...

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Ehemm...dalam pada I nak berlagak riak nak balik Mesia..ghope-ghope nya ada orang yang akan terbang dulu...5 minggu pulak tu.Isk..I dah tak taw apa nak cakap, melainkan ucapan aku benci padamu...hiahhh!!!!

So kepada Puan Zaiton...selamat pulang ke tanah tumpah darah mu...(eh..you ada ke darah yang nak tumpah?)

Tag

Hjh Leemah dah dari bulan lepas dengan kejam nya listed me in one of his tag...kalaulah sebab tak sayang, memang akan ku persetan kan saja tag mu ittew...tapi, kalau kawan-kawan yang tag, misti dibuat dengan patuh nya...nak nak pulak Puan Zaiton pun dah jawab tag nya..and I pung takdok alasang nak mengelak...so, nah kau Hjh Leemah yang dikala tag ni buat tengah berantakan kat Milang nung....

Okehhh....soklang pertama, apakah nama airline yang bakal dinaiki oleh Hjh Esah and Co, bila balik Malaya nanti ? (Ehh...ada ke orang tanya soklang tu?)

Name 4 Things That Need To Be Invented

Susah betul nak jawab soklang ni...ye lah, menda-menda yang I suka semuanya dah di invent oleh manusia.However, I quite like if human can design and invent more useful things like,

a) Bullet train from London to Kuala Lumpur...not many people yang suka naik flight.Pahtu kalau kaki lenguh, boleh jenjalang dalam train tu.Tak payah nak mengharap kat flight attendant yang kadang2 ber mood puaka (ni kes, habis clubbing, tak cukup tidur terus fly kan?) Yang ada pung sekarang...naik lah train sampai Russia nun..pahtu naik that Trans Siberian train sampai China...2 minggu nak sampai Thailand...berak dalam seluar lah kalau camtu...

b) Satellite Navigator (for car) sekali dengan tips-tips for jalan short cut...

c) A portable/wearable navigator untuk orang-orang yang selalu jalan kaki cam I ni...misti ada indicator bila locating anjing garang a mile ahead, or sesapa mugger/pencopet/perogol bersiri/paranoid schizophrenia yang tengah meroyan and anything that can pose a danger to me.Better still, kalau gadget ni juga boleh berfungsi sebagai pistol, so takyah lah nak tunggu polis datang baru nak solve problem.

d) Software from the tape recorder yang boleh transform minute-minute meetings into reports, so tak payah lah aku ni kena menaip/menulis bagai...penat taww...(tapikan..habislah Boss I yang suka mencarut dalam meeting tu....semua eff eff keluar)

Name 4 Things That Should Never Have Been Invented

a) Abdullah Ahmad Badawi
b) Khairy Jamaluddin
c) Akademi Fantasia (no offence lah ye...but surely, how could you have voted for that budak botak to win?)
d) Anwar Ibrahim....not because I think he is stupid or anything alike, but do you really want a Prime Minister yang dari dulu sampai sekarang dok bersakit hati aje?

Name 3 Things That I Don't Know About You

a) I am legally married, but I still live like a single woman...kejam tak I?

b) I am not medically/psychologically trained, but I am part of the Team that care for adult with complex mental incapacity and dysfunction (tu dia berlagakkkkk)

c) I wear my wrist watch on my right hand with the face facing inward. Orang tanya apsal...I jawab, pasal I tak nak calarkan the surface...

Name 5 Snacks You Enjoy.....

a) Karipap
b) Biskut Bantal

c) Asam Kulit Limau
d) Twisties
e) Kuih Coklat Bertatah Kelapa...(hapa ke nama nya Kiah!!!!)


Sekian.....I tak nak tag sesapa....sebab orang yang I nak tag


a) Tengah berpantang
b) Akan berpantang...tapi sekarang ni dia dah delete blog dia, jahat tawww....
c) Tengah cari tempat nak express susu anak kat opis dia...so, I tak nak lah menambah stress dia nah?
d) Tengah menjerang air, nak minum air putih punya pasal...so saves her from having to pronounce nama-nama minerla water yang susahsangatanaksebut tu.

Updates

I need to say this....

a) To those who was born in 1972...let's get this fact very,very straight yeah...beranak lah kau bulan berapa pun...when we are in 2008, you are now officially 36 tawww!!! Masuk je tahun baru...umur pun bertukar la...ni tak, dah 2,3 entry, tetap jugak aku nampak umur dia tu masih 35. Jeles kat aku yang 35 ni ke?

b) Ni lagi sorang....lagi sekali dia kompang dia balik KUL macam travel dari USJ ke Sunway Pyramid naik Rapid KL, even dalam comment box aku pung, siap mung!!! Sungguh sensitip taw...mung tak pe lah..mung tok payoh baya tambang pung...kami-kami ni? Dah dapat naik Sri Lankan Airlines yang £517.00 (haruslah nak bagitau orang berapa I paid for the flight kan?) sungguh lah bersujud sahwi nya....(tapi kan..disebab kan mung berkompang sokmo..mung jgn lupa tapau VCD haram, tuna chilli dalam tin and sampoerna ijau)...macam siyall kan? Marah..tapi dalam kemarahan sempat jugak nak mengambik kesempatang...

c) Tahniah kepada Mak Datin yang baru beli DSLR camera tu...(nak ambik gambar siapa tataw....gambar janz-janz yang membeli belah kat Netto ke?) Bangang betul amazon bagi free gift yang tak perlu tu kan? Apa kata free gift tu di free gift kan kepada I yang memerlukan ni? (hehehe...kesempatang lagi)

d) Selamat berjalang jugak kepada Ratu ELeeZabeth yang akan menerokai ruang udara Milang itu...nervous ye? Gigih sungguh nak berjalang noh...dihangkutnya jugak Putera Phillip walaupun Putera Phillip baru jatuh tersembam...bila nya mung nak samang Cambridge City Council tu???

e) Good luck on planning another escapade to Sue Typhoon...(ingat lain kali bawak peta taww..tak pun, invest in Satelitte Navigator)

f) To Elviza....Selamat berpindah rumah besar bagi kemudahan anak untuk melompat (dan jugak mak bapak untuk bercakaran) Eh..since anak kau suka melompat, apa kata kau beli trampolining...mana taw, dah besar dia boleh jadi Gymnast ke hapa...

g) Kepada kengkawan ku yang tak boleh nak pronounce nama brand-brand mineral water....(adakah ni untuk penayangan kepada Diva yang terasa dia bagus tu?) well, Volvic is one of them...(tapi Volvic is so cheapo brand lah here...) kalau nak lagi glam..Pfitzier, Perrier,Evian...tak pung, cakap ajelah air putih....semua waiter tau.Dah lah uols...give it a rest..anak dia comot!!!! Larikkkkkkkk...

Have a nice day.

It's Not You....It Is Me....(Fade To Black)

I agree to see this ex client/patient of mine...(yang sebenarnya terpaksa, because we bumped into each other when he was at the centre having his Depo injection) I saw him last year and I ended our work together as I feel at that time, Pakcik ni dah recover from his issues. ----Pakcik was having a nervous breakdown you...bila his wife left him------

But jantan is still a jantan...bila nak ditinggalkan, masa tu lah ada nervous breakdown...tapi bila dia dah dapat release kan his wife from his system, tak tunggu siang terus dapat pengganti.I looked at his file and that kira-kira nya, dia dah in a new relationship for a 8 months githoo...I can still see his red eye, ayaq mata and ayaq hidung yang berchuchuran...dek tak sanggup ditinggalkan.But in the end, kena jugak tinggal...yelah, siapalah yang tahan berlakikan jantan Manic Depressive kan? Hari ni okay, besok serabut, lusa sayang menyayang, tulat macam nak dibunuhnya kau bila kau lambat hidang kopi...

He told me that he met his current gf during our work together.He said that knowing her made the moving on process lot easier (eleh...memanglah, kalau dah ada yang baru, haruskah kau terus nak mengenang orang lama? Lain lah I ni...)

Since Pakcik ni only nak chat-chat dengan I...I pun okaylah...tapi sebenarnya, tak boleh tau...but, tak kan aku nak cakap NO kang buatnya dia datang gila, tak ke susah? I asked Pakcik the first time I jumpa dia, 2 days ago, if he want to be referred to other support worker? Pakcik cakap, alah...nak chat-chat saja, tak yah ikut protocol, lagi pun katanya dia tak sakit (see..first sign tau, org macam ni selalu cakap diorang tu okay...tapi, satu dunia tahu dia tu tak okay)

Psychiatrist cakap dengan I, kalau Makji nak ada casual chat dengan dia..takpelah, tapi jangan commit because Makji kan ke dah kerja lain department? (Hah..meh nak kompang..Makji dah masuk Dept. Substance Misuse tawww? Tunggulah sikit hari lagi, pasti akan slim lah diri ku hisap dadah)

Pakcik ni cerita kat I yang gf baru dia ni macam dah distant githoo...and last week, they have a heart to heart talk together and she wants sometime alone...maka Pakcik sudah gundah gulana...takut pisang berbuah for the 2nd time and gf baru akan break off. His gf cakap dengan dia yang she think that it is not working...it is me. It is not your fault. Berderai dunia Pakcik ni. So Pakcik ni tanyalah I..what do you think, Makji? Is she cheating on me ? Cehh..typical jantan kan...kalau pompuan need time off, mulalah pikir yang ada jantan dah menunggu...

I must share with you...kita ni kalau nak nasihat pun kena hati-hati...not many people will hear things they way it is, nak nak kalau dah deluded sangat dengan segala prasangka.While we had hope dengan maju moden nya Malaysia bersama Pak Lah..(eh..tetiba aje) we just can't expect people to feel like we do...

Ada opis mate dedolu, datang kerja dok cerita keburukan laki dia aje...tak leh tahan lah, tu lah, nilah..sampai kita yang terpaksa mendengarnya pun rasa naik menyampah.What I did was...offer her the bestest solution I can think of for her at that time...kalau dah rasa tak tahan dan menyampah, bercerai aje lah kan? There's a limit with patience...we can try but some people will work things out and some just don't know how to change....and how I wish, I tak bukak mulut sebabnya, after that her laki bila datang jemput her from work will give a the dirtiest look you can ever ask for.Lepas tu, one of the Sr Manager cakap kat I..eh Makji, betul ke you suruh si dia tu mintak cerai? Dah..aku pulak yang kena dah...but wouldn't you, kalau orang tu dah hari-hari cerita hal laki dia...kalau cerita part laki malas mandi ke, pengotor ke tak apalah..ni pi cerita kat seantero opis betapa laki nya ku ada problem dalam adegan konket mengongket ni....hish...well, maybe I shouldn't say anything.

We always think that the other person easy way out of a relationship is by saying 'It's not you, it is me'.I used to think that. Although in a way, it is an easy way out...when you think about it, we just don't say thing we don't mean.Yes, it is me who maybe feel a bit different now...but why do I feel this way? Because of you lah kan?

It takes 2 to tango.People fell out of love sometimes because of obvious reason. You lost interest...dah lama sangat and dah rasa boring.Unless you are diagnosed with Complex Aspergers and tanpa ada perasaan, you can just tell your the other person..eh, aku dah bosan lah dengan kau.Because that is how you feel.

It is you who contributes to the way the other person think about you.It is only normal people can just get fed up.

While we can just cry ourselves a river after the other person dah mula menampak kan sifat-sifat kurang prihatin nya, maybe we like to ask ourselves if he/she is worth wasting your tears for? We may think that we are the best, we are worth fighting for, but are we really?

I'm not the best example alive.My ex dumped me twice and I think, it was my love that keep him alive in my heart...although he professed his love, I am not the one he chose to marry...isk..isk..isk...

So tak banyak sikit, akulah yang jadi penyebab kenapa chenta tak sampai ke penghujung...

I told this Pakcik, I honestly don't think it is advice that he is after...men hardly asked for advice because they always think straight...a man will make a straight decision although it is not always a good one, lainlah kita pompuan-pompuan ni...berpikir panjannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnng sangat...pikir apa akan jadi kat orang tu lah, pikir apa akan jadi kat orang ni lah..tapi pasal diri sendiri tak pikir...

Pakcik went into another relationship right away after his wife left him. The obvious reason is that he can't cope with being empty.The ego side of him is that he needs to know what is wrong with him...but maybe it is just nothing.I just said to him...it is good now that you have time to think whether this is what you want or not.

Having someone by our side is almost habitual.Human function better when they are more than 1. But sometimes, things are not meant to be. You can still function as 1, maybe not as good as 2 but bearable.

I just hope Pakcik will not start stalking his estranged gf....he was doing that with the wife before...aduhh!!!!

Marilah Kita Makan Keledek....

Menurut sumber yang boleh dipercayai, Pak Tidollah telah menyarankan rakyat Malaysia supaya makan keledek just because recently ni, ada rice crisis. Makan keledek ye?

The Leaders...as they like to call themselves kadang-kadang bercakap tak serupa bikin and what is obvious is the contradiction.

Before, we have this kempen Melawat Malaysia...berchotti lah dalam Malaysia while all the cabinet leaders akan membawak segorombolan adik kakak pergi melawat oversea.To make matters worst, all their overseas holiday snaps will be published in Jelita/Wanita and tah hapa-hapa lagi magazine yang majority nya dibeli oleh mak-mak kita yang takdelah nak mampu bawak anak-anak gi makan angin kat Disneyland...(even Disneyland yang kata nak buat kat PD tu tah hapa jadi tatau)

After that, mulalah masing-masing buat kempen makanlah buah-buahan tempatan...I'm sure mak Datin would rather die with Gala Apple in their hand than buah deghoyan kan?

So, Pak Lah nak kita makan keledek? Kita kan ada ladang padi kat Kedah nun...or is that just to cater Pak Lah and Co?

What are they going to do now with the new high rise petrol price? Galakkan rakyat naik public transport yang penuh dengan sexual predator tu ke? And The Leader is ferry around in their Merce...or paling koman Protong Perdana...

Tony Blair pun naik train lah Pak Lah...that Conservative Leader pun naik beskal...

Kesian nya orang kat Malaysia....

Big Bother....

MB cakap dengan we all (I dengan MB2) yang dia tu kunun nya tahun depan nak masuk Big Brother.Eh..tetiba aje kan?

I have not been active with watching BB this year...well, salah satu dari sebabnya ialah kerana perperangan dingin dengan Orang Tua tu. See, we both BB mad.Because of what I do for a living, watching BB is like shadowing all the patient in their secure unit.Si Tua tu pulak...erm, let me think...Si Tua is a writer and that watching this sort of program kiranya bagi idea lah kat dia...plus, I actually never really asked apsal dia suka nengok Big Brother.

When I finally sat down in front of the telly, watching the eviction last Friday, tengok muka sekor-sekor...tuhan aje lah yang tahu if I can like them all in person, let alone living with them. Lainlah Puan Zaiton dgn Makcik Hjh Leemah yang memasing bercita-cita tinggi nak mengorat si Dale tu...eh, apasal you all tak taste dengan Mohamad yang rambut macam sarang tabuan ittew?

So, kami cakaplah dengan MB, yang kau nak masuk sangat Big Brother tu kenapa...kau tau tak kau terberak pun masuk dalam TV.Knowing MB yang sungguh kureng sense of vanity, maka kalau dia masuk Big brother next year, habislah arang akan terconteng kat muka keluarga nya...

When I was doing my CBT course, we used BB as a study tool (yang benarnya, student2 lain used it as a study tool tapi aku ni, tah kemana lah study nya...) We discussed every contestant...(teruk kan? Kerja cakap pasal orang aje kami ni)

For whatever reason masing2 nak masuk BB...hanya mereka yang tahu.What I can't stand (because it is simply pure shit) is when people say things like..I'm going into BB house because I want to learn more about myself....erm, like what eh?

People just don't learn about themselves in 13 weeks....counselling session pun 15 weeks, tu pun kena yang kepala lembu, 15 weeks belum tentu lagi menjanjikan kebahagiaan mutlak.Have you heard about people yang gi kompang serata alam yang katanya..I've been to counselling...and dengan tetiba aje terasa segala wayar dalam kepala yang bersimpul macam rambut mak gagak dah jadi lurus dan senang di urus.....

The beauty of counselling is...(unlike counselling Jabatan Agama demi menyelamatkan rumahtangga) you can talk about anything without being judge.That is how it is suppose to be...you are given a space and it is all about you.

You are likely to learn about yourself more in a quiet place like that (the counselling room) and bukannya dalam BB house.Nak nak pulak kalau housemate you yang berjenis mulut super puaka macam Alex tu...

I think, what it is about BB house is more to a desperation for exposure.It is easy to watch than being watch.You are constantly conscious that every step you make is an open view and it is very hard to keep up.We always think that we know what we want...but quite often, when we got what we want, we can't cope with it.

So, berbalik kat MB...I cakap dengan dia...takyah lah nak masuk BB.Knowing her...after 2 hari dia akan start meghoyan..pasal malaun-malaun tu pengotor and MB, janganlah kau berani nak kumpul pinggan dalam sink....

Not to mention some religious police who will pick on every little thing like...gelak kuat2 tak mencerminkan nilai keislaman or berjoget lambak sangatlah meruntuhkan moral pompuan melayu...

Tapi kalau Puan Zaiton & Hjh Leemah berkeras hentak kaki nak masuk Big Brother tahun depan...I janji, I akan undi sampai bill Vodaphone I naik sejuta, boleh?

Arkib Seminggu

Let's see....kalau ikutkan hati, rasa nak tidur.Takde masa nak update blog.Kerja banyak...Big Brother pun tak ber tengok-tengok. Unlike orang yang tengah ber maternity leave bagai tu. But, I did have an interesting week, takdelah se interesting orang lain but good enough to become my latest blog entry.Takdelah nak cerita pasal psychopath aje...

1. Musim Panas Di England
Elviza bertanya, syok ke musim panas? Ohh..panas ke? As far as I can remember, panasnya adalah 2,3 hari but being a Melayu tak sedar diri that I am, I can no longer appreciate the sun, maklumlah kan ke aku ni datang dari negara kutu-listiwa tu? While orang putih macam tak sedar diri nak menepek-nepek sun cream sun block diorang and berjemuran diatas padang...(and you Malaysian man are thinking...alangkah indahnya dapat menyaksikan segala neka size chest fruit) I pulak, rasa nak berpayung aje kulu kilir...puas taww nak putih kan kulit!!! But after 2,3 days of berpanasan, tetiba hujan and kesejukan...Summer hapa kebenda nya ni?

2. The Apprentice...Final
Many people macam tak syok aje bila si Sir Alan Sugar tu decided to hire Lee McQueen...(Hjh Leemah..you taste ke dengan Pakcik banyak parut jerawat ni?) Well, I can understand kenapa orang tak puas hati...pasalnya the runner up tu, si Claire debab tu is far more capable.If I am allowed an opinion, si tukang-tukang komplen tu kena ingat...The Apprentice is not like Britain Got Talent ke, Big Brother ke where you have to call and text to vote. So..viewers don't decide. Si Alan Sugar tu yang decide, pasalnya itu kompeni dia.As I am train to watch people people menggunakan teknik-teknik emosi...I think Sir Alan Sugar selected Lee McQueen for a very obvious reason...that is he is the one who deliver. Si Claire debab is capable, very capable but halfway through...she missed the vital point in the process. She is more interested in focussing her emotional relationship with Sir Alan and not being herself. The last 2 episodes shows clearly that she prefer to be in Sir Alan good book and not using her expertise to win the task. Kesimpulannya, kalau you sibuk nak menjaga hati and tak buat kerja yang sepatutnya kena buat pun tak bermakna jugak kan? Kena buang jugak...

c) Story of a man and his crime
I was travelling on the Picadilly Line to from Finsbury Park to Hammersmith. A good 40 minutes. If I am not mistaken, si Pakcik ni appears from Green Park.The seat next to mine is vacant and dia pun melabuhkan kan lah pungkok nya. What is it with men and the need to mengangkang luas-luas when seated? Pakcik is violating my private space and because of his kangkangan yang mencapai almost 45 darjah, I had to reposition my knee. Not only his knee trespassing my seating area, he used up the arm rest with his bagak arm and I had no choice but to shrink.Sial betul. The next crime of his ialah...oit..tak reti ke nak pakai deodorant? As Capt Lukmag rightly pointed out, this type of men smells like minyak bijan...I am trying very hard not to give out his ethnicity away, kang dikata racist lak...but I kid you not, the bijan smell (ni busuk punya bijan ni) is so distinctive and annoying that I had to swerve my nostril towards this young lady seated next to me, unbeknown to her that I actually sought comfort in her smell...I had no choice you, Pakcik Bijan BO really is a leathal! Pakcik Bijan crime didn't stop there. He was wearing...red collared long sleeves shirt and strippy light brown trousers with a very loud drawings on both back pockets...a trouser that only suits gay man. Mesti dia rasa lawa sungguh...but I know for sure, most reasonably dressed man would not wish to be found dead in that trouser....sungguh lah tak kena nya...

d) Perlukah aku berkawan dengan miewww?
JT sent a friend request to me on Facebook . I'm sure semua orang dah tahu apa masalahku dengan si Badak Berendam ittew...Let's cut the long story short. I am quite picky with mates...therefore, aku ni takdelah banyak kawan.Dah le aku ni perilaku buruk. I sometimes question people's motivation to get acquainted with one another...do we just want to know people for the sake of 'yehh..aku kenal dia....hahahaha' like that. JT, to begin with, bukanlah lah kawan dengan I pun...bahkan, I doubt he know that I exist masa dia puas ber chentaan kulu kilir dengan gofren nya kat MRSM dedolu.I made my feelings very clear to him...pandai pulak lepas kena maki hamun tu me low profile kan diri, kan? Tup-tup..munchullll piula kat facebook and I bet, if I add him, mula lah adegan cocok mencocok akan berlaku. If only you can stab rather than poke...

e) Sri Lankan Airlines
Nak balik Malaysia dimusim panas and dekat nak raya...sungguhlah sengsara nya. In the end, setelah puas ku google segala mala website tambang murah, Sri Lankan Airlines proved to be the cheapest...hajat hati nak berlagak naik Emirates bagai...this flight will take us to Colombo before adjourning to KUL. I can imagine my snooty sedara mara yang selalunya berterbangan naik 1st class itu menyindir...'apo? kau naik patobang koling tu?' (ahhhhh) 'namo yo dok London...' (aik..apa kena mengena duduk London dgn SL Airlines?) See, people always associate duduk London dengan pitih belana. Cilako!!!!!

Entry Kepala Serabut......Nombor 2

Kawan-kawan yang dicingtahi....mekasih kerana sudi membagi comment yang sungguh therapeutic untuk diriku yang dah stoing-stoing ikan ini....

Speaking of ikan...Puan Zaiton, ikan emas wanita asia itu ditemui mati dalam keadaan tergolek gelantang dalam balangnya pagi ini.Sebab-sebab kematian, takleh nak dipastikan tapi 2,3 menjak ni, perut ikan emas yang sekor tu telah mengembung tanpa sebab. Menurut Cik Putih Lou, dia menyedari kematian ikan emas itu ketika dia sedang mengisap rokok dipagi hari.Tambahnya lagi...antara yang memilukan dirinya (pilu konon...tah tah ikan tu mati kanser peparu kan?) ialah ikan yang sekor lagi tu dilihat sedang berhempas pulas cuba menyelamatkan mangsa. Ikan emas itu juga telah selamat dikebumikan dibelakang rumah dengan bacaan Bismillah...oleh Cik Putih Lou, katanya.....

Patah tumbuh hilang berganti kan? Like any other majority jantan yang baru mati bini...MB telah bercadang untuk mencari pengganti ikan emas tu hari Khamis ni.

I have had an eventful day today...although I was blamed for causing acute constipation (padahal dia yang makan telur dadar hari-hari) tapi takpe...tuduhlah aku.

One of my patient was having a relapse....mulanya bercakap sensorang...pastu ketawa mengilai-ngilai cam Suster Ngesot and pastu boleh nangis cam nak rak macam John Terry missed penalty...and pastu terus naik hantu, stormed out from the unit and bergasaklah kitorang mengejar dia...

Nak dijadikan cerita, tah macam mana, she escape from the unit.Tau tau pukul 1.30 am last Saturday, police telephone we all nak bagitau yang si patient ni ada kat balai, buat report yang dia ni dah kena rog. Alamakkkk....but listen to this, katanya, dia kena rog when she was 8. Tak ke 32 years too late ni? Because she was too disorientated and in schidzoid state, police tak leh lah nak buat apa-apa melainkan suruh makcik ni balik rumah saja...

So, makcik returned back to the unit.Still hallucinating and I thought, she is way to vulnerable to be allowed back into the community.We can't hold her back...against her human rights pulak..but if I don't do something...makcik akan berjalan serata alam and akan adalah nanti allegations-allegations yang org ni rog dia lah...org ni pukul dia lah.Habis satu Kensington kena tuduh merogol nanti....

I pun suruh lah si Demoted Manager ni (ala...pompuan Nigeria yang hobi nya mengugut I tu) contact Duty Psychiatrist...pasalnya, to get someone into secure care, you must be medic professional yang boleh buat scientific analysis...tak cukup dengan 'Oh I think she is not well' aje...so, basically, I am not certified to have her locked up, I do not have a medical background to diagnosed that she is unfit. So, I pun bagilah instruction kat si DM ni...dengan harapan, kalaulah makcik ni masuk sepital, maka secara tak langsung, selamatlah manusia-manusia lain and not to mention, to protect this lady herself.

No surprise...si DM not only tak buat apa yang ku suruh...malah disuruhnya Psychiatrist tu telephone I...and what am I suppose to do? I wasn't there...kiranya macam ni lah...you ada maid jaga anak you..anak you jatuh patah tangan...and you are far from home.Obviously you tell your maid who to call as she is physically there to see the severity of the incident.Ni tak...si maid tu bantai suruh nurse or doctor to call you.What can you say...Nurse, anak saya patah tangan...tolong lah ubat kan...but do you know is the tangan really patah or just tergeliat? DM tak cukup dengan tu, dia boleh suruh pulak Psychiatrist ni telephone police.Apa ke hal nya?

So, makcik yang berhalusinasi gila babi ni, bukan aje not getting right treatment, malah dibiarkan aje keluar rumah...

Cut the story short, cari punya cari, kami pun (I dengan jantan-jantan hensem yang kerja dgn I) jumpa makcik ni...in such a bad state...kotor,serabut,hancing...and menyanyi-nyanyi riang.Maka kami terpaksa pujuk dia pi spital and of course, to dealing with someone who has no concept of what is right and wrong is a real struggle...makcik telah menyerang beberapa pedestrian kiri-kanan...nasib baik sorang pun tak buat police report...all the way I had to apologise to the beaten up public....

After 6 hours waiting...maka makcik telah di sectioned.....and besok, siaplah aku kena interrogate dengan segala mala Officer dalam Social Services tu....aiyoooo....

Do you want my job?

Entry Kepala Serabut.....Lagi

Pernah tak merasa bila bangun pagi, or bila-bila masa tidur pastu terjaga and start thinking....

What am I doing here? Why do I bother?

Macam tu lah rasanya hari ni. For over a week, I was forced into attending 'Positive Practise In Behavioural Support' training kat Bristol sinun. I don't carry my laptop, kununnya, tak memerlukannya sangat.Ye lah tu...plus, ada 2,3 manager lain yang pergi, so Makcik2 ni misti pakat bawak laptop memasing, so kiranya, bolehlah I ni menumpang guna gittew...

But in the end, I was the only person that the company sent. To make matters worst, bawak mobile phone..pastu charger nya tertinggal. Merasa mencatu-catu bar battery telepon.Sengsara sungguh hidupku.

Before I went, I bergaduh dengan orang tua tu. Tak ingatlah pasal apa....always like that, bila bergaduh, we fought hard like adalah gross misconduct ala-ala I was caught having an affair ke tapi after a while, tak ingatlah piula pasal apa punca gaduhnya, tapi yang nyata, HATIKU INI MASIH SAKIT YOU ALL!!!!!!!

I am not happy at work. I am now decided not to take up the promotion, walaupun dapat naik over £3k gaji (bongkak kan..siap cakap dalam blog lagi pasal gaji)...I emailed Boss my decision and the reasons behind. In fact, I am thinking to leave the service all together and to find work in more non-profit environment.

I realised today that I desperately miss my family.I haven't call my parents for months...I sent them postcard but I'm too, not sure if malas or malu to call.

Leaving me alone on my own if my father's greatest fear. I have let him living in fear for the last 9 years. Sihat ke, selamat ke...

When you feel like shit, all you can think of is that, it is the consequences of all your bad doings,to your parents.

I bought my flight ticket home yesterday...and yes, I will telephone home soon. My mother is a calming influence. And I desperately need to feel calm.

Take care all.