Maka kita adalah nak sampai ke tahun baru uolsss.....sekejap aje kan tahun 2011. Sepantas kentut betul.
For some, the 2011 may have been good and kind to them...and for some, this year may have been so spectacularly shit (ohh bahasa jiwa bangsa lah sangattt). For mine, I almost don't know where to start. Seriously. The good and bad is almost at the same level. But as a Muslim (yang tak kan luntur iman nya sampai ke mati...walaupun hutang piutang kuserahkan kepada bapak ku...siapa lah tu ye?) and as also someone who is trained to be thinking positive at all ocassion, I am thankful for the good and the bad.
To be fair, the first couple of episodes of the year is a little shaky, can't help to feel like life has just meandered in circles like a confused zombie locked in larder. The blame has to lie in the characters around me, who are all resolutely duff.
But living life sometimes is about reflecting. When you feeling bad that the money after the long days works is not enough and how others just plucked them from thin air (read..duit laki) serta merta melahirkan perasaan jaki (kenapalah aku tak dipinang lelaki kaya) then think again that maybe is good thing to have less money but total freedom. Some people are never happy with themselves (although dok propah lah kata I am what I am, I am happy with what I am) and feel the need to be somebody else and dream to have the life like somebody else. While I think it is healthy to just emulate, macam mana lah kita nak belajar pasai kelemahan diri kita kalau kita dok taksub dengan hidup orang lain nehh? Or, are we the type who moans about everything? Some people think that it boost their self esteem up to nit pick everything. We see people from all walk ways of life...ada je perangai buruk tak kena dek mata kita mulalah kira nak salahkan keadaan. Ish...perangai buruk seseorang melambangkan dari mana dia datang ke?
Love and emotion? Since when things is so straight and perfect? You can love someone with all your heart can pour and expecting good and better things to come out of it, but all you get is...none to the measure of what you have given. More often we see cases where love is never enough...the one we really love is not so perfect in the perfect world hence the constant feeling of indeaquacy.
Only we can interpret our own happiness. Kalau happiness kita tu membeli henbeg sepenuh lemari dan berjalan kesana-kemari disaksikan awan nan biru, maka happy lah kita.
For me today, happiness is about...no fatality at work (samada saya atau orang lain)...having enough money to buy a return ticket to KUL every 3 months or less (babaiiii PRADA) to see AMMA as much and as frequent as possible (Kiah akan kata I auta..cakap lah rindu kat MC) and to be around people who cares about me.
I don't have big dreams....or anything bigger than above.
After many, many dissapoinment sometimes helps to prepare one for the inevitable. Love is a promise that can't be sealed with anything. People can come and lift your hope up and dissapear. Must you be sad? You should do sad for couple of days only....pastu get on with your life. Something in this life has no redeeming features I can tell you that.
Life is also about taking risks and for this I did not mean skim cepat kaya or centa-centa internet. Very the memalukan tau baca all those highly educated women got sucked into chenta pak hitam or pak-pak yang mereka sensiri tak tahu apa kalerr nya and have their life savings vanished before their eyes. Loving someone is a risk. Marrying someone is a risk, although Jabatan Agama adalah musykil as to why ramai benau orang bercerai. What is there to dwell about when one union didn't last? Kalau takut kapalterbang delay, janganlah pakai Air Asiyyal kan??? You can have all the cod liver oil you'll ever need and you won't risk getting your arm ripped off. Ye ke? So kepada kawan I if you read this, janganlah ko hengat naik bus pi Singaporrah akan berakhir dengan bas tu terbalik dan kita mati bersama ye? Pi lah hang sensorang naik kapalterbang yang mahal tu...
Akhir kata...enjoy life. Care for those who care and loves you. Hidup ini bukan untuk selama-lamanya...(pesanan untuk diri sendiri, telekung yang berlipat dibawah katil itu adalah untuk digunakan.....iskkk)