2010

Seperti biasa..aku kan malas nak hapdate?

For the last 2 years..hidup ni takde nya nak ber resolution. I really don't see the point of marking the change of the year by making promises yang entah ye atau tidaknya akan dibuat.

But what I do do is, to reflect on life...looking back the years that passed. Bagus ke..or nak kena buat post mortem bagi baik sikit or to change the strategy completely.

Regret was many. Orang kata life is too short to have regrets. How wrong is that (for me) your time is short lah we tend to dwell on regrets..how such a short time in life kesalahan itu tak sepatutnya berlaku.Especially incident-incident bangang e.g. pergaduhan dalam pesbuk, pergaduhan dalam blog. That kind of regret.

So because of that...the strategy is to be extra choosy and extra guarded. I welcome new friends...ye lah I ni kan wanita melayu terakhir yang bongkak.My worries is that..by freely accepting friendship and knowing me and my not so subtle manner, I tend to lose them quite quickly too.

But there's a good lesson learnt. Seramai-ramai orang yang sakit mental and emosi nya...ada jugak yang mengumpul kawan untuk dibuat tudung saji menutup kelemahan diri. The obvious weakness is that tak pandai nak berkawan...pahtu bila dah rasa confident dah ramai kawan, mulalah confident tu digunakan dengan cara yang tak betul.

I nak cakap pasal orang, I pun ada sel dalam badan yang tak betul jugak.I hope I'll be better.

Kepada kawan-kawan yang baru yang memang kompem akan disimpan sampai mati....marilah kita ber pesta tak hengat nya...berguling-gulingan di Richmond Park sambil menyanyi lagu Watimang Landok.

Happy New Year.