Assignment - No Rujukan : DD

Kiah have been breathing down my neck. With me being a a FB regular, I can't escape her perintah yang dititahkan dalam wall I. I don't know why Kiah feel that it is okay for her tak hupdate and aku tak bising, but I cannot go on having blogmalas moment without her doing smearing campaign kat sini and kat dalam FB, sampai orang lain pun boleh nampak.

In DD's case....if its not because of Kiah's (and kau jugak Mak Buyung SS19) penchant for cheap gossips, I couldn't be bothered to entertain him, or his ongoing issues yang dibuatnya sendiri dan terpalit pulak kat I.

After Zila BNS revelation, I dok pikir..should I tepon dia ke nak tanya, apa ke hal nya? Ye lah...things like this, yang kira-kira nya boleh lah menjejaskan reputasi (tahik kucing la kan..buat statement camni, macam la aku pemes pun) kenalah dicari sebabnya. I don't have the pleasure to kompang/gossip/caruts dalam YM, and my avenue untuk melampiaskan rasa marah pun is through blog aje itu pun...I dok pikir (or is it me..over analysing again??? like always) what if dia saja je cakap that thing to Zila, knowing perkara tu akan sampai kat I jugak...and I will then go seeking for him, like what he always wanted. If I call..then that gives out message that I care..when actually I don't.

But why on earth, he think that I lead him on? Ada ke aku gegosok tangannya? Susah la jantan ni...I sort of know what sort of risk(s) I am about to face with him...or when you encounter any other vulnerable men for that matter. Thing is...just bcos life is so shit for them, a passerby like us yang konon nya nak menolong ni can be a scapegoat, tak pun victim.

I ni, idok le nak nolong dia..masa dia nak bercerai berai dengan bini nya that day...but kalau time jumpa, dah itu aje tajuk intisari rancangan nya, it is not like I have a choice kan? If you don't lend your ears...kau dikatanya sombong la..tak care la...hapa punya kawan...etc,etc. But, DD pun rasanya mcm tak tau malu aje...we only just met. Okay la...he was once the really hensem guy from school...ala-ala Azura & Zek la berchenta time sekolah. He went to PPP Sec 6, while the gf pergi US punya preparatory college kat Section 18 ke hapa. From friends la jugak I found out that his GF married another guy and dumped him. That must have dented his confidence ke hapa-hapa issue kelelakian nya. It has hit him bad apparently that dia tak kawin-kawin...throw himself at work and study and menjadi Debab perkapasita. See..ingat kan kita pompuan aje boleh merana sebab chenta, jantan hensem pun boleh jugak kan? Who would have thought chenta monyet/cikah/baboon gitu akan memalapkan masa depan? I don't really know much about what had happened and I never asked. Bila jumpa balik, tau tau dah tinggalkan bininya dengan tak banyak notice and penjelasan.

I think I ada jugak cakap...ye lah, the decision we made in life tak le semuanya bagus. Walaupun dia dok kutuk how incompatible bininya dengan dia (he is talking education wise ni) dia jugak yang pinang pompuan tu. Mengaku aje lah kau tu tak pikir panjang...and by the time he had realised that he is so trapped in his own marriage, maka...face up lah...cakaplah dengan pompuan tu baik-baik kan? Women nowadays should expect anything from the husband. If laki kita takde terminal illness, he can come home..tuptup..abang nak kawin lagi...dan gf abang taknak bermadu, so..abang nak ceraikan you la. Cam gitu pun ada. Tak pun...kalau bini yang bangsa selalu outstation, sesekali balik rumah mengejut akan disajikan dengan adegan blue lakinya dengan bibik la (ni bukan lah bibik ala-ala Madura, ni bibik set Nia Zulkarnain la ye..)

I think (of so many wise words I've said to him) I ada gak cakap kat dia, if you're honest about how you feel, I'm sure...your wife will understand, dalam hati yang pedih pun..that the marriage is doomed and kalau dah laki pun dah tak nak kat kita, what more can we hope from a marriage kan?

But of course DD bangsa tak nak dengar cakap orang (or ayam) and nak nak nasihat yang datang nya dari I yang maybe pada dia la..takde pengalaman.

With DD and his episodes of..kejap okay, kejap tak okay...really made me uncomfortable. I told him off so many time...but he must have forgotten or conveniently forgotten about it somehow and often, we met macam takde apa-apa yang terjadi. But the burden of having him as a friend must have been too much for me to handle that I decide to okay la...malas la plus, aku pulak yang lupa buat janji dengan dia and I berambus balik Msia sebulan...and meninggalkan nya tercongok-congok kan?

So..mana tak nya dia marah dengan I???????

So, I was agonising whether I should call him or not....and I did.

And you Kiah..have to wait.