Hello uols (yang tah siapa-siapa) yang dikasihi....nahh terimalah update I.
I am not going to start with explaining excuses...what that it has been a while since the last one. Of course there's things to do. It probably seems like nothing, but yes..there's many things.
Then I have fur-kids. A responsibility bestowed to me. Yes, I like to do things for people. Ada yang pandai appreciate. Ada yang...patut didoakan pergi mati. But the cats are my companion.
Talking about companion...there's those who make you happy. Ada yang, tak. Like the kengkawan...you need them. But there are times when you...have that arghhh not really feelings.
I can only hope people enjoy my company. I am not easy to deal with...that much I know. Sometimes, I don't want to do things you like. At times, I don't like what you do. On good days, I will let it pass...you can say stuff to me that nothing in my bones finds it offensive.
But there are days...that the sight of you may menyakitkan hati.
As a person..it is important that we know these weaknesses of ours so that it will be easy for us tolerate the weakness of others.
People may see us....this tak kisah happy happy three bags full person yang katanya nak bukak penutup mineral water pun tak larat.
But there are times we are this control freak with Everest expectations. We have standards..we want things our way...because it is the right way. We think.
I have bad days. I have days when I don't mince my words. I have days when I feel so lonely.
I am currently in a place where I can be happy. Familiar environment make me feel at ease.Deep inside I think about my cats because I hardly spend more than a day away from them. I talk to the cats when nobody is talking to me.
Some people have endured unsavoury remarks...pick on their helmet, their lack of refreshing smells...and perhaps their androgyny style. When all this came in that joke package, you will see that way. The light hearted way.
Some people took it all. We probably don't get over defensive as there maybe no truth in it.
I said to someone before, if you said something to people and they get defensive gila-gila...and, most probably, the blinkered truth is staring at them.
Well, be prepared to be called vindictive and never get spoken to again.