Happy New Year 2011

Seperti biasa orang yang boring dan tak berwawasan cam I, duduk rumah aje dimalam tahun baru. Dan memakan cekelat pemberian orang dimasa Xmas hari tu...uish, makin debab lah lepas ni.

I don't remember making resolutions and sticking to it. To me, kalau I nak buat apa-apa yang baik, takpayah lah nak tunggu tahun baru. If I ever made one or two on the NY's eve, maybe pasal orang keliling I ber resolusi dan seperti biasa, I yang mak turut ni ngikut je apa yang orang buat.

I always want to be good person. I have this imagination of a perfect demeanour. Bila I tengok perangai orang ni macam ni, I pun berazam, eh, I takmau lah jadik camtu. When I was in boarding school, I used to get into deep trouble for taking sides. Problem was, I took 2 sides instead of one. I want to be everybody's friend. When you live in such a confined spaces, you bound to get on each others nerves. The one that got their 'nerves' tangled are often my closest mates. Of course bila sorang ni tak puas hati dengan sorang ni, they will then form a group, so there is 2 groups of kengkawan yang tak puas hati sesama sendiri. I know my intention was good but to them I was a batu api. Apa yang berapi pun tak tau. Bila orang ni cakap orang tu XYZ, I pun cakap..a'ah. Sokong punya pasal. Bila orang yang itu pulak cakap orang ni ABC, I pun cakap..a'ah jugak. Worst bit, they asked me what have I heard from that person vice versa. Dengan lurus bendul nya..I pun cakap lah..oh dia kata you XYZ and dia kata you ABC. In the end, yang bergaduh dah berbaik dan sengaja pulak tu melupakan benda yang mereka cakap to one another and menuduh I ni yang bawak mulut. Pundeksss sangat kan? So, lesson learnt was the obvious. Jangan masuk campur, unless I really feel strongly about it.

Tahun 2010, I adalah jugak terperangkap dalam crossfire but of course I have matured 20 over years from my schooling days. Orang kata semakin lama kita hidup, semakin banyaklah pengalaman dan semakin luaslah pemikiran. Entahlah...yang bergaduh dan beperangai kurang cerdik yang I have come across ni bukanlah budak hingusan pun. Tapi kesudahannya pergaduhan tetap sama...salah sendiri tak mau mengaku dan gunakan orang lain sebagai scapegoat. Bila kita tegur, terus keluar statement...oh, kalau you tak suka, you boleh blah. Ohh...asal you bahagia lah.

Okaylah...I takde azam. Ada jugak plan nak buat azam, tapi belum sempat sampai midnight dah terburai. So I will just stick to observing people's demeanours and try not to be like them. Antara perangai orang yang I tak berapa berkenan dan berharapan I pun tak jadik macam ni ialah...

1. Bercakap pasal diri sendiri or in Sally's term -Ceritaku Ceritamu. Macam life dia sajalah yang interesting nya...dalam pada dia nak relate to problem orang, kesudahnya jadi 'All About Me' jugaks. May I say, lately ni dah sampai ke tahap menyampah bukan kepalang. I remember to just being able to laugh it off...but now, I may die choking my own vomit.

2. 'Over' trying so hard to be someone you are not. If I can sum up the words, it would be, you make the clothes not the clothes makes you. You can show off your entire designer's wardrobe, you can show off your expensives gifts or purchase...but if it is not 'you', it will not be 'you'. Proud to achieve is one thing, but proud to be loud is certainly another...

3. Holier Than Thou. You can tell when someone being so ikhlas and kamil. But spare me those preaches from a reformed Mat Joget yang just because dia rasa dia dah nampak cahaya kebenaran, teruslah anti duniawi. I am so pleased if you dah dapat your 'Nur'...tapi dah serupa PAS bagi ceramah dalam mesjid mengata UMNO (let's highlight 'mengata' and 'dalam mesjid' ye) apakah namanya Nur itu? Lupakah you macam mana Rasullullah berdakwah dengan Abu Lahab? Piiiirah mabuk.

4. Over conscious. The type of people who wrapped themselves in a cotton wool ni. Haiyoo....tu salah, ini pun salah. Kita buat salah lah dulu kan baru kita belajar?

5. Over-emotional. haiyooohhhh....sudah-sudah lah nak buat drama out of cerita kartun kan?

****sources from Facebook.