Update

Here's what been said....pompuan gila saja yang kan percaya lakinya 100%. I wonder can the same be said about makpak, siblings or anak?

Look at us. Do we really lead the life of what others think of us? Or what others believe how we live it? Actually what been said about trusting spouse 100% wasn't the reason prompting this entry. I seen cases of double life and I think, I might be leading one, or even more. And people who are close to me maybe thinking yang I ni set-set pijak semut pun tak mati. 

I bukan nak cakap pasal double or triple life. I am sure at certain stage of our life, kita kena role play, ye tak? Kita kena jadi isteri mithali tapi belakang, sakit hati kat laki. Or, kita kena jadi majikan who berazam takkan dipergunakan oleh pekerja. Or kita nak jadik gilpren yang setia tanpa dimain kayu 2,3 dek pakwe kita. 

Thing is when you are too cautious, you jadi penat. You constantly musing whether to do or not to do, to believe or not to believe. Nak ke hidup camtu?

I was talking to my friend about our friend yang dah 4 kali bertukar laki. Considering dia ni pun baya-baya I, this friend of mine kata yang her circumstances is unusual. Ye lah...kawin cerai, kawin cerai. Bunyi nya macam tak best. But looking at it with a sharp perspective...it can either be ;-

1. When she feels love, she acts on it. Kahwin lah. What's so difficult about getting married? Takda nak decide-decide whether nak kahwin dengan yang ni ka, dengan yang tu. 

2. Dia berani buat keputusan..ya lah, one marriage didn't worked out, so berambus lah kan? Buat apa nak save, save, save...dalam pada nak buat misi menyelamat tu dah membuang masa...cinta makin tak ada...so cut the losses lah kan? So we should waste no time wallowing self pity, maka kita pun keluarlah dari kegelapan tu and mencari hidup baru. What is there to be serik about? 

I received few proposition in my time. Ada yang I betul-betul suka...tapi dalam suka-suka, rupanya dia ada orang lain juga. Bila you dah sayang...at times you either didn't realised or refused to see things thats coming that has hazard potential. Ohh this is when ada orang bagi nasihat, don't go in in love giving 100%, simpan la sikit kot-kot tak jadi and then you have like 10% to get by after that. 

Nasihat ni memang la bangang. Ke you tak tahu yang dalam hidup berlaki ni, kalau laki kita tak dirampok orang, dia akan diambik tuhan. So, dari mula sampai your timing is up, you nak hidup dalam insecurity ke?

Or, on another view of life, can't you just enter into a relationship resigning to the possibility that kalau takdir jodoh you lama, lama lah dia and kalau sebaliknya, redha sajalah.Jangan lah jadi macam Awie uols, dah buat silap, boleh pulak ngaku dia kita mandrem. Pigidah mabuk!

Well, tu kalau kita terlampau berhati-hati dalam hidup dengan laki. But what about doing something you really like in life? ----(beli handbag tak kira)

Can you not follow your passion without having to think about what if...what if ? 

Perhaps, following a passion is just the wrong way to phrase it. It sounds like it’s there in the world fully formed, you just have to dig it up under the right bush. Really, you have to foster a passion. You have to actively put some work in and try things, and try them for a little while, and get into them, and then you switch. Part of grit is actually doing enough exploration early on, quitting enough things early on, that you can find something that you’re willing to stick with. So I don’t know that there’s an easy prescription then for telling people how exactly to do that. But I think one misunderstanding, which is very dangerous, is to suggest to people that passion just falls into your lap, and it’s love at first sight. 

No, bukan macam tu ya...

Maybe, what we should do is not to be too cynical in life. Shit, happiness, grief etc etc..pleasant or unpleasant is part of a whole life package.