Update Yang Emo

There are people on my Facebook who I am sorely tempted to unfriend but kenot la kann...ehh, boleh sebenarnya kalau I ni bersemangat waja to deal with aftermath text messages. Dan juga pertanyaan kengkawan lain. I am just lucky that numbers of relatives tersangatlah kurang because of my strict policy.

 

Sesuai dengan kedewasaan rakan-rakan sebaya I, of course mereka yang dulunya adalah bohsia sekolah sekarang dah jadi ibu dan isteri mithali yang mengupload segala benda yang dimasak nya kat dapur dengan caption semi-puaka, ala-ala nak kata la, air tangan dia lagi berkat and not some lauk you buy outside etc etc.

 

Eh baii..elok lah kalau ko masak for your family but must you taruk caption yang bakal mengecikkan ati kengkawan yang takdak choice terpaksa beli lauk or import leftovers from umah makpak diorang?

 

Tu belum lagi part part nak bagi education kat anak...discussion among themselves on what is good and I dengan rakan-rakan sekapal yang lain nganga ajalah...ye lah, apa nak diajar..French lesson ke bahasa Arab kat anak meow I tu? Pastu debate la pulak sesama mereka, yang one think that Bahasa Arab tu maha penting la sebab tu bahasa Quran la etc etc. Mind you anak baru 5 tahun. Sakit gigi pulak I baca argument diorang...nak mencelah kang dikata nya I ni tak tahu apa sebab I belum ada anak. Then sorang lagi masuk dengan recipe-recipe macam mana nak disiplin anak (without knowing what I do)

 

Tah la uols. Yang i tahu and I think kita semua pun tahu, there is learning appropriate at every stage. Brownie points is good, but biar yang wajib dulu kita ajar. Respect, tolerance, kindness, discipline. Kalau anak you set-set yang tak reti hormat tuan rumah bila jadi tetamu, nak salam tangan pun tarik-tarik muka but you pulak heboh nak masukkan dia kelas Kumon, maka I yang takda anak ni lagi tahu mana arah nak ditunjuk kat anak you yang telah dididik menjadi anti sosial.

 

Kalau anak you set set yang buat umah orang macam umah dia, first lesson, ko cubit ja anak ko tu sampai biri bijik kundang! Kalau anak ko tantrum sebab tak dapat main Aipek ko backhand barang sedas...ni semua lah kalau reasoning versi parents homputis dah tak jalan...terapi hanger jawapan nya!

 

See, uols sebagai parents memang la banyak cabaran hidup. Dengan anak la, dengan laki la...but there are things yang nampak tak penting but vital for self-happiness.

 

Going off tangent lagi, I have wanted to list this things down for a while now. My mental notes. Something to remind me what is so important to wake up for, to live each day towards.

 

Too many people now live to escape their reality. We do it every day...kalau hari ni hari Rabu, you keep saying ahh can't wait til Friday and then weekend. Macam lah weekend you menjanjikan hari bahagia. Why can't you just live the Rabu without wanting it to finish quick? Why can't you just create a good day for you, a good reality that you don't need to keep escaping. I am so guilty of doing it. When thing is pressing in Malaya, I can't wait til the day I am in KLIA checking out KUL. Why can't the life you lead is good to make you smile eh?

 

Then this penyakit of judging too quickly or in FB now, sharing it too quickly. Takdalah nak check benda tu masuk akal ka, bodoh berdengung ka. Well to aspire not to judge is perhaps impossible kan? Judging should happen after the facts have spoken.  But what is key is to understand that it has to be factual and that even facts can change a picture as it evolves, redefine by perspective and more information. Still kalau bercanggah pendapat, why can't we do it kindly?

 

Another thing that is bothering me slightly is just how less exclusive time we have with ourselves dan memberi peluang kepada orang meng assume kita yang macam-macam, kan? Ke I yang paranoid? I sebenarnya kan uols...tersangatlah anti social. Ada masa memang I tak nak ada dekat orang langsung. Sometimes buat menda sensorang ni selamat. Ye lah, kita tak tahu apa hal kita yang kawan kita dah pi broadcast kat orang. Ada manusia yang take pride menjadi bahan berita sensasi, yalah dia lah yang tahu semua benda...sapa gaduh dengan siapa etc etc. Now and again, kalau kita dah tahu diri kita ni bakal menyakitkan hati orang, we can always do it alone. Not needing to to have someone else to keep me company out in the world. Relish lah...the freedom of eating alone, tengok wayang sensorang or just allocate one or couple of days being thoughtless that you aren't worried about anyone else. Ada branik?

 

To those friends yang I dah kurang bercakap atau dah tak bercakap langsung...it has come to the point that I have to be comfortable with the idea that my truths may be wrong. Looking back, I have dissapeared from certain radars. At that time I have to..sebab sakit ati. Thinking back maybe it was stupid but hey, had you care about my feeling you wouldn't have reduced me to feeling upset. So I tak cakap dengan you...dengan suku sakat you. Tu belum lagi yang I terperangkap dalam crossfire yang tah hapa-hapa lantas mendapat reputasi pembawa mulut. Too often people argue because they have different perspectives of what is truth. You think you were wronged but others around you just see that you've been a big crown Diva. This is rooted in the almost arrogant belief that almost all humans have yang bahawasanya ko je la yang betul. Ni satu peringatan untuk I lah ni...that I cannot be arrogant enough to think that I am infallible and correct and think lesser of you. Walaupun ada ketikanya dalam situasi tu I lagi pandai dari you...payah ni...especially dengan aruah Kiah. (has she got new name now kannn hence the aruah)

 

To my remaining friends yang after all that happened and we are still on talking terms...sebelum topic gunung berapi seterusnya. The gunung berapi is the vital point in friendship, can we tahan the lahar? Trust me, all we want is to be remembered and known as that very nice person with all nice things that came out from our mouth.

 

Takde nya yang nak jadi laser Obiwan Konobi. Melainkan memang dia nak reputasi mulut bak halilintar. Elehh elok sangat ka?

 

So, hari ni saya sangat emosi. Di kejauhan ini kucing favouritie saya belum nampak jalan balik lagi. Pasal tu la menulis pun mood cam lahanat. Once upon a time I was alone and sad in that great big house and meow tu lah yang meneman I.

 

Doakan lah kucing I tu pulang....uhukk uhukk uhukk...